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An only child’s confession
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I’ve always had this particular need to create imaginary conversations with the people who live within the walls.My mind shapes their bodies and faces, sometimes it can only shape one of them,so I just talk to a body without a face or a face without a body. I like talking to them, especially during long showers,because the water adds some sort of realism to the whole thing. They appear when I feel lonely, when I’m full of thoughts and I need a rest from being myself, talking to them feels like I’m in other places. Sometimes, I have cried as a result of a constant discussion with one of them. It's not that I'm unhinged , it’s just my way of throwing the garbage away.
-Len
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“I often laughed, and you often gave me a dissatisfied look, till you pressed me to unfold my past before you as if it were a roll of pictures. It was then I felt respect for you. Because you unreservedly showed me your resolution to catch something alive in my being, and to sip the warm blood running in my body, by cutting my heart. At that time, I was still living, and did not want to die. So I rejected your request, promising to satisfy you some day. Now I am going to destroy my heart myself, and pour my blood into your veins. I shall be happy if a new life can enter into your bosom, when my heart has stopped beating.”
― Natsume Soseki, Kokoro